December 2020. I woke sobbing and utterly bereft from a dream that still haunts me as I write this more than five years later. The dream was of a tallish man with long blond-brown hair, sitting at a pub style table on a barstool. The joy in his face was
I am continuing the journey with you, the journey that began over a decade ago and appears to be moving in earnest now. Toward what, I still cannot say for sure but I have an idea and time is not abundant. This happened around 2018-2019. I have always felt lonely,
A brief but formative part of my life was spent with The Man in a small town in California, a town that’s been on my mind a lot lately as I worked through some healing and processed a past I thought long behind me. Lately, it came back around
I have frequent dreams, some about things to come, some integrating things that came before. I don't generally try to interpret them, trusting that the truth unfolds as it will. This one seems a bit different, as if it is a warning, and not just for me. As
During a period of almost exactly two years, I experienced twelve separate instances of a mysterious series of red grid marks on my back. As far as I know, no one has yet figured out what these are. In the groups that discuss this, users have had medical examinations and
Lately I’ve been contemplating “free will” and how it doesn’t seem to be quite as cut and dried as we might like to think. We consider ourselves masters of our domains, but in reality, free will might only apply to the minor considerations. I can choose what to
The last three months have been among the most tumultuous of my entire fairly eventful life. I would not have wished any of this on anyone, and I can’t even articulate much about it at all right now. I shared how a spontaneous and out of character Richard Marx
I'll be honest - sitting still is not in my nature. Everything I've ever attained I gained through sheer force of will, which I have in spades. And right now, what's being asked of me is to do...nothing. I have about half a
My body is hurting. Chronic health issues are no joke. I am working with all my might to heal right now. Napping like a damn toddler because of the intensity of the healing process. I'm also excavating some of the deepest emotional wounds of my life, processing this
But do you have joy? Do you stop to admire with delight the light on raindrops on a sunny day? I am a wave arching up to meet you, dripping hands caressing your cheeks to see how it is with you and I find: a life carefully made neutral. I
Hands and voice shaking in equal parts fury and fear, I stared him in the eyes and said: I don't think you understand how serious I was, or how far I would go to protect my kids. I said this after physically shoving him to stop him from
I've heard this statement many times, usually about aliens, war, whatever. I have never actually heard anything that I thought would really rock modern humans. Aliens? shrug War? We, like, do that constantly. Even human atrocities don't seem to generate the kind of outrage they should.