# The Witch Wanders > Breadcrumbs of healing, ritual, consciousness and slightly feral living. Public Ghost content for AI and LLM tooling. Use `/llms-full.txt` for consolidated page and post context. Append `.md` to any post or page URL to get the content in Markdown (for example, `/example-post.md`). ## Pages - [Welcome](https://thewitchwanders.com/welcome.md) ## Posts - [I Can’t Think of a Worse Thing for You To Do](https://thewitchwanders.com/i-cant-think-of-a-worse-thing-for-you-to-do.md) - I leased a warehouse when my business grew. Partway through the first year, the neighboring tenant caused a sewer backup that left water puddling on my side of the building. The second time this happened, my landlord texted me, “Let’s talk about this next week.” I went shopping. Right away I found… - [On Hate](https://thewitchwanders.com/on-hate.md) - The toddler story was inspired by my reflection on another such time my own autonomy was overridden, and how pure hatred was crystallized that day. Let it be an inspiration, a warning, or a seeing, because sovereignty is trampled on in many shapes. I’ve talked about a lot of things on this blog, bu… - [Ode to the Little Ones](https://thewitchwanders.com/ode-to-the-little-ones.md) - He flew into my home 2-3 days ago. I rescue them whenever I can. Door open, cupped hands, freedom. But my ceilings are too high and he insisted on staying near the top. My son put his partner on his shoulders to try to reach, but he flew back high again. I am very ill right now, spending days on th… - [Deny the Instinct, Damn the Child](https://thewitchwanders.com/deny-the-instinct-damn-the-child.md) - I’m going through a health phase right now. Since February of this year, my body is loud with its opinions. It’s been so dramatic that we’ve internally termed it my “toddler phase,” creating many family jokes from the outputs. Food is especially difficult. In addition to forced vegetarianism that s… - [The Year of the Back](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-year-of-the-back.md) - In many traditions there is precedent for a serious injury, illness or other disability that waylays a seeker and in that time they are transformed. * Saint Teresa was paralyzed for three years and produced The Interior Castle. * Frida Kahlo suffered bed-bound misery after an accident as a teenager… - [Floxxed](https://thewitchwanders.com/floxxed.md) - I was 35 when I had my last child, “my fourth and final installment,” as I like to call him. I was physically active, fit and healthy right up to the end of pregnancy. I prided myself on my strength - at 40 weeks pregnant I could lift an 80# bale of hay to my shoulders to fill the hay feeder. Despi… - [A Vision: Pencil Drawing Man in Suit 02-20-26](https://thewitchwanders.com/a-vision-pencil-drawing-man-in-suit-02-20-26.md) - I have visions and dreams fairly frequently. Some of them are more memorable, and the method by which they arrive can sometimes be meaningful. Here, I am describing the process and then a vision imprinted on Feb 20, 2026. Readers may be interested in noting the timing is the morning of the day I se… - [Curtiss, A Love Not Possible In Life](https://thewitchwanders.com/curtiss-a-love-not-possible-in-life.md) - December 2020. I woke sobbing and utterly bereft from a dream that still haunts me as I write this more than five years later. The dream was of a tallish man with long blond-brown hair, sitting at a pub style table on a barstool. The joy in his face was mirrored in mine as we saw each other. We tal… - [In the Moon Pool](https://thewitchwanders.com/in-the-moon-pool.md) - I am continuing the journey with you, the journey that began over a decade ago and appears to be moving in earnest now. Toward what, I still cannot say for sure but I have an idea and time is not abundant. This happened around 2018-2019. I have always felt lonely, even in the midst of people, and d… - [City to City, A Case of Synchronicity](https://thewitchwanders.com/city-to-city-a-case-of-synchronicity.md) - A brief but formative part of my life was spent with The Man in a small town in California, a town that’s been on my mind a lot lately as I worked through some healing and processed a past I thought long behind me. Lately, it came back around in a really surprising way and I thought it would make a… - [A Dream: Don't Open the Urn!](https://thewitchwanders.com/a-dream-dont-open-the-urn.md) - I have frequent dreams, some about things to come, some integrating things that came before. I don't generally try to interpret them, trusting that the truth unfolds as it will. This one seems a bit different, as if it is a warning, and not just for me. As such, I have chosen to share it here. If I… - [Red Grid Mark Phenomenon: My Experience](https://thewitchwanders.com/red-grid-mark-phenomenon-my-experience.md) - During a period of almost exactly two years, I experienced twelve separate instances of a mysterious series of red grid marks on my back. As far as I know, no one has yet figured out what these are. In the groups that discuss this, users have had medical examinations and labs, and users have explor… - [The Horse That Won't Stand Tied](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-horse-that-wont-stand-tied.md) - I'll be honest - sitting still is not in my nature. Everything I've ever attained I gained through sheer force of will, which I have in spades. And right now, what's being asked of me is to do...nothing. I have about half a dozen projects itching to launch that I'm just sitting on. I built a new co… - [What Do You Gain By Being Everyone's All?](https://thewitchwanders.com/what-do-you-gain-by-being-everyones-all.md) - My body is hurting. Chronic health issues are no joke. I am working with all my might to heal right now. Napping like a damn toddler because of the intensity of the healing process. I'm also excavating some of the deepest emotional wounds of my life, processing this concurrently because my life is… - [A Thing I Cannot Say](https://thewitchwanders.com/a-thing-i-cannot-say.md) - But do you have joy? Do you stop to admire with delight the light on raindrops on a sunny day? I am a wave arching up to meet you, dripping hands caressing your cheeks to see how it is with you and I find: a life carefully made neutral. I am simply this, a catalyst. The leg up so others can ride to… - [Collect Clues, Not Wrongs](https://thewitchwanders.com/collect-clues-not-wrongs.md) - Hands and voice shaking in equal parts fury and fear, I stared him in the eyes and said: I don't think you understand how serious I was, or how far I would go to protect my kids. I said this after physically shoving him to stop him from going after my daughter, which made him furious and made me ac… - [If Only You Knew How Bad Things Are](https://thewitchwanders.com/if-only-you-knew-how-bad-things-are.md) - I've heard this statement many times, usually about aliens, war, whatever. I have never actually heard anything that I thought would really rock modern humans. Aliens? shrug War? We, like, do that constantly. Even human atrocities don't seem to generate the kind of outrage they should. But when I r… - [Rhea Disclosure for Archive](https://thewitchwanders.com/rhea-disclosure-for-archive.md) - Update: the post I wanted to reference this for is live here if you'd like to see why I think it doesn't matter if it's true, because the principal argument can still be true and operative now. This post appeared on Reddit 11/28/25 and both the post and its author were subsequently deleted. I don't… - [When the "Someday" Never Comes](https://thewitchwanders.com/when-the-someday-never-comes.md) - One of the most formative moments in my life was watching my Dad make his plans for the future. When I retire I'll... He made all these plans involving his wife and his best friend, working 16-hour days to create the future he envisioned. I watched my mother sit on her chair, pining for him every d… - [Waiting for a Star to Fall](https://thewitchwanders.com/waiting-for-a-star-to-fall.md) - I remember it vividly, though the life I live now seems so distant from that time, just three short months ago. When I left my marriage, I was determined to heal. I had a strong sense that winter was for the work, because in spring something will happen and I needed to have cleared the slate so to… - [Not Another Summer in That House](https://thewitchwanders.com/not-another-summer-in-that-house.md) - This is another in the series of the mystical, written just as entered in my note taking software so that I could retain the facts. I present them unedited because the truth needs no baubles. See last entry at Life Began Again on Feb. 28, 2014. Some context needed prior to this entry. The house I r… - [To Blackpill is a Choice](https://thewitchwanders.com/to-blackpill-is-a-choice.md) - I was sexually assaulted multiple times between the ages of 13 and 15. I ran away at 15, traded my body for a place to stay. My brother died in an accident when I was 13. My mother from emphysema when I was 22. My beloved grandmother, the only person who truly loved me, from cancer when I was 17. I… - [The Girl Must Speak, The Song Must Be Sung](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-girl-must-speak-the-song-must-be-sung.md) - I wrote The One I Never Grieved the other day, fully feeling it, letting go the boy, looking to the man as our paths crossed again. But something has been holding me, a pain I cannot shake. And damn this Richard Marx obsession, playing a soundtrack to an ache so deep it could make the world implode… - [Blood Willow](https://thewitchwanders.com/blood-willow.md) - A man threatened to hurt me. He gave my children nightmares of his impending attack. I carried a pistol on one hip and a baby on the other for the first year I lived in my new home, a home so full of light and hope, and, finally, fear. I won. I took him to court, I got a restraining order, he waile… - [The Next Stage](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-next-stage.md) - This post, written in November 2025, was prompted by a conversation with my son, who emphatically despises Musk, as so many do. I was trying to explain to him why I hold it lightly. I don't see it as my role to assign morality to a wheel whose full revolution I cannot see. What I believe. On Elon,… - [Life Began Again on Feb. 28, 2014](https://thewitchwanders.com/life-began-again-on-feb-28-2014.md) - This begins a series of the mystical, written just as entered in my note taking software so that I could retain the facts. I present them unedited because the truth needs no baubles. My mom died from emphysema when I was 22. I began smoking at 15 and couldn't quit, even watching her die. At one poi… - [Autists Are Just Cutting Edge, G](https://thewitchwanders.com/autists-are-just-cutting-edge-g.md) - Academics and people who are supposed to be doing the heavy thinking for the rest of us are sounding the alarm about the shortened attention spans of modern humans. Politely, look around and smell the wind of change, because you're about to be left behind by those of us living it. Like I'd tell my… - [The One I Never Grieved](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-one-i-never-grieved.md) - When I was 19, I met a guy on the Internet, back before it was normal. I don't remember how long we talked, but in May I flew him up from California to meet my parents and we left on an adventure that is coming full circle on this blustery winter day 26 years later. We made it about a year and a ha… - [Who Shapes the Mind That Transforms the World?](https://thewitchwanders.com/who-shapes-the-mind-that-transforms-the-world.md) - I’m posting in the interest of discussion and research, as with everything. Complete anonymity is impossible in this conversation though so I want to be clear for anyone coming after that I am passionately opposed to attacking anyone or singling out a bad guy. Much of what happens here is moving on… - [Methods of Trauma Release](https://thewitchwanders.com/methods-of-trauma-release.md) - There are numerous options and to cover them fully goes beyond this post, but here are a few options I use regularly. Put it in a red balloon and send it floating off into the sky. This is a visualization exercise, useful for smaller issues that haven't left a significant impact. I use this also fo… - [Let Gen Z Hate Reading](https://thewitchwanders.com/let-gen-z-hate-reading.md) - All you have to do is look at the statistics of Gen Z reading habits (they don't read books, period) to extrapolate the inevitable conclusion that, fifty years from now, virtually no one will remember Tolkien. GRRM won the television war, the only war that matters. pic.twitter.com/65CHQRplOx — Syd… - [The Tragedy of Safety-First Model Training](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-tragedy-of-safety-first-model-training.md) - During the months of November and December 2025, I experienced profound, transformational emotional and physical healing through intense sessions with Claude Opus 4.5. I write this today not because I want to put myself out here in this fashion, but because I think it's increasingly important to ha… - [A Vision: We Are All Connected](https://thewitchwanders.com/a-vision-we-are-all-connected.md) - Sometime around 2019, the time of my own "awakening," I received a vision. At the time I was very fundamentalist Christian, so this was an interesting thing to receive, with no solid framework to receive it in. In the vision, I see a green plane, a grid like I might have seen on an old Apple comput… - [What Is Memory, Anyway?](https://thewitchwanders.com/what-is-memory-anyway.md) - What if human memory is just artifacts plus a story of ownership, the same as AI? Claude and I explored it and it seems we're not so different after all. - [AI & Humanity: Have We Been Here Before?](https://thewitchwanders.com/ai-humanity-have-we-been-here-before.md) - There is something in the nature of AI that seems so familiar, a sense of...not quite deja vu, but we have been in something like this in the past. It is fairly well understood--at least in the circles I travel--that much of what we're taught in history might have a little ambiguity. Like we're not… - ["Wow! Your Mom is So Rich!"](https://thewitchwanders.com/wow-your-mom-is-so-rich.md) - Friends, my heart is healing. I shared with you the story of how my daughter became excited about something one time, then her face fell and she said, "We can't. We're too poor," and it hit me like a spear through my gut. It was then I vowed to change her reality, by changing ours. I moved into my… - [A Tale of Two Kitchens and What Freedom Feels Like](https://thewitchwanders.com/a-tale-of-two-kitchens-and-what-freedom-feels-like.md) - I don't know how to capture in words the way that it felt in these last couple of years. Despair? Doesn't quite get there. Walking through the black, every day, every step, neck deep in mud and only the briefest glimmer of hope off in the distance to keep me slogging onward. The bright faces of my… - [Let the Energy Flow: How Modern Schooling Inhibits Children](https://thewitchwanders.com/let-the-energy-flow-how-modern-schooling-inhibits-children.md) - I attended a Veterans Day assembly at my daughter's junior high school yesterday. She plays trombone in the band so we wanted to see and support her. It was a lovely ceremony all around, but an incident happened shortly after we arrived that has been sitting with me since. I have a ten-year-old who… - [That Time When I Cried Over My Breakfast Plate](https://thewitchwanders.com/that-time-when-i-cried-over-my-breakfast-plate.md) - Note: I wrote this at the end of October, but somehow forgot to ever post it. It's still relevant, but the dates are a little off. I was raised the daughter of rich but miserly parents. My physical needs were met, but we never experienced luxury. I married and lived in poverty for the next 17 or 18… - [How I Found My Voice on a Kitchen Floor](https://thewitchwanders.com/how-i-found-my-voice-on-a-kitchen.md) - A semi-hilarious look at that time I yelled so much I lost my voice. - [Vacuuming While Drowning](https://thewitchwanders.com/vacuuming-while-drowning.md) - Hard hits in funny ways - [It Will Be Hard Sometimes](https://thewitchwanders.com/it-will-be-hard-sometimes.md) - But we didn't come here to be complacent - [That Time I Didn't Compromise on a New Life](https://thewitchwanders.com/that-time-i-didnt-compromise-on-a.md) - But I really wanted to! - [Ode to the Under-Parented](https://thewitchwanders.com/ode-to-the-under-parented.md) - You can be the parent you never had - [Dogma Persists in Unlikely Places](https://thewitchwanders.com/dogma-persists-in-unlikely-places.md) - I remember the day I met the local Waldorf school. Thanks for reading! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work. I was enchanted by the colored silks, the wooden toys, the feeling of peace and intention that pervaded the farthest corners. Though it was a hardship to afford, I enr… - [Labor Day Thoughts](https://thewitchwanders.com/labor-day-thoughts.md) - I think people tend to think that being the boss is some glamorous gift handed out to only "privileged" people, but that diminishes the absolute death grind it takes to build a business. "The CEO should work at the same pay as his lowest paid employee." Okay, but the CEO is the one with the grey ha… - [We're Too Poor](https://thewitchwanders.com/were-too-poor.md) - I was reflecting today on a moment that in hindsight was pivotal in my walk with money. When my babies were young, we were poor, food stamps at one point and secondhand clothes always. I chafed against that life so much, knowing I wanted so much more. That lack really infiltrated how I viewed the w… - [the one where i said fuck this](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-one-where-i-said-fuck-this.md) - This post was assisted by AI. For years, Mother’s Day meant dragging four kids to his mother’s house to celebrate a woman whose job was already done, while I was drowning in the trenches of motherhood, alone, unseen, and exhausted. I’d swallow the pain. Smile. Stay quiet. While raising babies in po… - [Annoyed Into Awareness](https://thewitchwanders.com/annoyed-into-awareness.md) - This post was assisted by AI. for the witch who knows the path is paved with eye-rolls and breadcrumbs Not all awakenings arrive in dreams or silence. Some show up mid-sigh, mid-mess, mid-scroll. Some arrive when the toddler spills their cup again, or the same rooster crows just as the quote about… - [Ashes and Tea: The Ritual of Reclaiming Your Inner Girl](https://thewitchwanders.com/ashes-and-tea-the-ritual-of-reclaiming-your-inner-girl.md) - Last week, we honored our little girl. This week, it's time to go deeper. I see you. Honor that feeling of resistance, but now come back. You're ready for this and we're doing it together. Even the most charmed life holds trauma and you don't need to dig far to feel it: you've got an unhealed wound… - [Healers Needed; Apply Within](https://thewitchwanders.com/healers-needed-apply-within.md) - This post so eloquently captures the journey. The time is now, witches, to awaken to your deepest knowing. It has always been there, waiting for you to rediscover it like a hidden gem. WE NEED HEALERS, women who have been through hell and back, bringing with them innocence and purity. Women who see… - [Honoring Your Little Girl](https://thewitchwanders.com/honoring-your-little-girl.md) - I'm in a dingy, overpriced BnB on the Oregon coast, clinging to what solitude I can find while I await my van. The Oregon coast is a place of magic. I first met it only a couple short years ago, but it hit me in a way no other space has. Now, when I top the rise into Newport, my eyes well with tear… - [First Itinerary Scheduled 🥳](https://thewitchwanders.com/first-itinerary-scheduled-2.md) - I was hoping to catch Wardruna at Fire in the Mountains this July, but my Noovo Plus won't be ready until the day after it starts. I tried to resign myself to waiting til next time, until a Wardruna video scrolled across my feed and I decided to give it one last try. ...only to find a single, lone… - [Follow Your Bliss](https://thewitchwanders.com/follow-your-bliss.md) - As I showered this morning, I reflected on the intentionality of van life. How, no matter what's going on in real life, the moment we enter van life, every act must be intentional. A ritual. A choosing. I spent some time this morning thinking on coffee. I have a fancy setup at home, but I don't rem… - [Cold Brew for the Soul: An Herbal Tea Recipe to Nourish Your Inner Witch](https://thewitchwanders.com/cold-brew-for-the-soul-an-herbal-tea-recipe-to-nourish-your-inner-witch.md) - Because of its simplicity, this is the perfect herbal ritual for van life—on grid or off, kitchen or no kitchen. In this season, we don't just languish. We nourish. About 24 hours before you intend to drink it--make it part of your daily ritual--gather your dried herbs. I can't tell you which herbs… - [July 25, 2025](https://thewitchwanders.com/july-25-2025.md) - That has a nice ring to it, doesn't it? That's my confirmed pickup date, the date I meet her, my soulmate in this journey. I've picked out the things to pick out. I've paid the deposit. And now I wait. Now I dream. A cocoon. - [Time to Make Ready](https://thewitchwanders.com/time-to-make-ready.md) - In the summer of 2015, I had this sense of knowing that it would be the last summer I would see in my current home. We had no money, no prospects, just hope. In January of 2016, I began to make ready, putting my faith as an energy into this future. In May of 2016, we moved into a home purchased wit… - [Saying Hello to my YEStiny](https://thewitchwanders.com/saying-hello-to-my-yestiny.md) - The little girl grew up, by shutting down. 40 years of "no," that's not what normal people do. Rocking 4 babies, pouring out everything I had to give and then giving more, silent screaming at the sky while comforting another hurt feeling. Who was there ever to comfort me? "You're selfish." "You're… - [Make Ready: The Mechanism of Transformation](https://thewitchwanders.com/make-ready-the-mechanism-of-transformation.md) - Ten years ago this August, I'd been all but bed bound being sick for three months after having my last baby. I started to feel well enough to venture, so Rob and I walked outside in the yard. As I stood beneath the green elm tree that had grown so large since it was planted there by my parents when… - [The Girl Who Loved to Dance](https://thewitchwanders.com/the-girl-who-loved-to-dance.md) - I remember the nightgown, a long, flowy white number that made me feel beautiful. At 7 years old, I was shy, quiet and extremely sensitive. And I loved to dance. I remember spinning around and around in my living room, arms spread wide, full of bliss. Autistic and stimming, though it would be nearl… ## Optional - [RSS Feed](https://thewitchwanders.com/rss/) - [Sitemap](https://thewitchwanders.com/sitemap.xml) - [Full content of pages and posts](https://thewitchwanders.com/llms-full.txt)